It's been awhile since I was here. I'm feeling bored and lazy, yep, so I'm here. Ok, I'm supposed to read up on my notes and get my assignment done but... oh well... Anyway, I'd probably read it up later. I'm currently at a lost. One reason that I'm always not here writing. Life is being mundane though. Only get to knock off at 6ish 7 for work on weekdays, and what's worst is I still gotta attend lesson and photoshoots after work and on weekends. Oh No, I'm not complaining, I'm just being grumpy though. My boyfriend's being grumpy too. lol. Zhi Hao has booked a room at MBS for Cat's birthday celebrations tmr. Sweet huh? The flowers that boyfriend gave me on Valentine's Day has already dried up, but still, i did pluck a few petals out and leave it in between my books. Oh ya, the incident on Valentine's Day had kinda made me blush much. He delivered flowers to my office and colleagues were like complimenting on it. Since the topic is on him, I think I have things that I wanna let out. I did almost give up on him. Was already on the verge, but till now I'm still holding on. Guess that's what most people phrase it as 'Love overcomes at almost all times'. Though I'm still procrastinating but sigh~ we've been through quite a lot of things over the past one year. I am so not looking forward to the coming week and coming month. I hate March, like seriously detest March, no offence to anyone, its just for my liking. March is always damn draggy. Back to work tmr :( I am still fucking tired despite sleeping for so many hours. Guess I'm gonna sleep soon. :)

Hey!!!! I realised I haven't been here for quite some time huh. Am back for a short post. Sigh~~~

I've been so busy recently. I've got my current job, which I'm leaving end of this year, I've gotta go for photoshoots for Jazreel, I've got event works to do but I failed to turn up last sunday 'cos something urgent cropped up, I've promised the boy to go help pack some candies during my free time, I've promised some friends that I'd go shopping with them but I'm trying to find time, Sorry Pat, Sorry Victor (i've just turn him down today and I felt bad), Sorry Denny. meeting up with colleagues for MBS Hugo Boss and Victoria Secrets shopping tomorrow, am in the midst of looking for a present for the boy and am still figuring how to do a very special card for him, gonna meet up with classmates next week and shu xian and liang qi and and and I'm gonna have an early mini x'mas gathering with family on sat 'cos they're leaving for some other places during x'mas, but too bad the boy might not be able to turn up. It's gonna be a super tiring, long, and bad dec this year. I gotta go shop for x'mas presents already! I realised I'm totally screwed, I'm so stress up and it's amazing how some mistakes I've made, its rather silly and stupid and unlogical. I want my letter to be returned back to me, else everyday will be a bad day for me! I need news from that letter! I need that letter to be back to me!!!!! Fatigue is kicking in :(

I feel so lazy to blog, but I've got nothing to do now. It has been a week for relaxation but my legs are kinda tiring though. I've tendered my resignation on Friday, had a long talk with my boss and he returned my resignation letter to me. Told him about my study plans and he asked me to take 1 year's study leave and call him when I get my diploma.

Boss: if you ever wanna come back in this line, call me anytime, we'll welcome you back anytime, no matter what put our company as first choice.

Me: Okay, but what if I wish to join another company after getting my diploma?

Boss: den I've got no choice, I can't force you either.

Well... he is super nice. He asked me to stay till end of Dec for him and join the company's x'mas party. Was kinda relieved after that talk with him. Went over to the shop after work on friday and continued working. Packed NON-STOP! My legs and hands were tired! Aunty Jean keep asking me to work part time for them LMAO! and I've got a message from Boss again, telling me i'm a good litigation secretary and make sure i give him a call after my dip bla bla bla.... I don't even know how to reply. Spent my Saturday with the boy, bot lotsa junk food and slacked at home. I freaking woke up at 5.30am this morning. Unbelievable! Met Hui Min and down to Taman Jurong for events. That's friggin. early can! Event today was a little boring but tiring :( I'm looking forward to the next event! We're gonna wear Santarina Costumes! Fuckyeah!!!! :)

Bye! Back to work tomorrow :( Thank God it's only a four day work week :)

To the one and only someone:

who calls me darling and be your little baby when I want to;

and calls me darling infront of all his friends;

who remember the tiniest little things that I've said;

who tries to get me everything that I want;

who let me wear your clothes when I've got no clothes at your place;

who would wrestle and fight with me;

hug me when I'm not fine;

filled my face with kisses;

who tells me everything;

tried to pamper, entertain and tolerate me even when you're tired;

who sings to me every now and then;

who calls me in the middle of the night to say 'I miss you'.;

who tried to cook for me even when you suck at it;

who could actually break my heart, leave me alone but would never dream of doing it; and much more to mention.

Remember this day of last year? I do you do, 'cos you even remembered our love drink. Toffee Nut Latte! which is back at starbucks now for the x'mas period. :) It's been a year, but it seems like it was just yesterday. The memory is still so vivid in my mind. I sincerely thank you for everything. I thank you for asking me to add you on fb, else we wouldnt have today. MIC has done quite a bit. :p It's 4 November 2010 already! I miss the boy! I miss the times even when we werent tgt yet. :)

Is it our anniversary? I dono! We don't even have an official date! but we do remember 4 November 2009. haha! I love Bryan Ong! for everything!

Friends . Forever . ? True?! It just tells you that you'll have friends in your life, for the whole of your life, but just different friends. 'Cos they come and they go. The old ones will go, and the new ones will come... Even if someday if we get back in touch with the old ones, they'll still go, no matter wat... 'cos each and everyone of us have got our own stuffs to do, everyone of us would have to move on and start searching for their future. Friends forever? of cos its true isnt it? :) it just depends how is your point of view and how you intend to keep it. Let bygones be bygones. There's no use holding on if that particular person just wishes to leave and there's no use bearing grudges, it pointless to be revengeful either. So what even if you succeed in revenging or bearing grudges? you wouldn't be happy too. Oh yes, probably for awhile but its not something that you feel that you have achieved and it's not something that you should be proud of too. I've let go, I felt better, I've brought up my courage to turn up infront of someone I used to detest, I've started a conversation with someone that I used to not like. It seems like it's the best thing that i've ever did for myself. That was to let go.

I'm suddenly missing quite a number of people and things. I wish we were still like how we used to be. But it seems like you've changed quite a bit. I've not talked much to you but I can see that you've enjoyed. I don't really mind, as long as you're happy :) Even if you're not now, I hope that you will be, 'cos it's gonna be the best thing ever. But I realised you don't seemed as innocent anymore, thats okay :) at least you've got to know whats going on around you and stay alert.

But of all, I miss the boy the most! I wonder why. It's not like as if i've not seen him for months. MIC Production Kitchen's gonna be up in 2 weeks' time. It's gonna be the last saturday for us next week, all the way till x'mas. He's gonna be busy, we're gonna be spending lesser time together. Can we pull through. I hope we will! I've talked to you for quite a bit last night. I ain't complaining. I'm just fed up at times. At times when I really felt lonely. I know I could look up for you as and when I want, but sometimes that's not how I want us to spend our time together. But yea, we've got no choice. Let's work hard for a good few years, say 4, or 5? Maybe den... we would be happier. I can't help but whine and just throw tantrums when I miss you. Am glad that you do tolerate me though :) I love my boy, and yes, I do appreciate whatever you did.

I miss the boy, I don't know how and why 'cos I just saw him yesterday but yes I'm missing him now. I'm getting busier in the office and files are stacking like no body's business, it's stacking like there're always a tomorrow. I have difficulty leaving this job! I guess my tomorrow's are disappearing soon. I'm soon gonna be a corpse in the office. After a long day of work, how good would it be if I could just get a kiss from the boy and fall into the arms his . I was able to do that yesterday but not today :( I'm not seeing him today. Dropped by the shop yesterday 'cos mom didnt cook. went over to look for the boy for dinner. He treated me Sogurt! NICE!!!!! and COLD!!!!! I miss it now :) But I miss the boy more. How I wish I could have him tonight to hug and sleep. :'( Liting and I planned for Halloween party! Everyone's gonna gather at 9pm to make up and dress up! Hooray!!!! Halloween!!!! Lets dress up and PARTY!!!! I wan masquerade masks!!!!! got me falling in love again :)))

Sigh!!! It has been a rather tough week for me. System was down since Monday night. When I was about to go to sleep on Monday night, I was already laying on the bed, i felt shivers. Serious shivers, went out of my room to get a glass of warm water, it didnt work, the shivers continues, bit onto my own hands to stop the shivers but still, it doesnt go away, it went on for about more an half hour and i started throwing up. I thought I was going to die, like seriously my hands turned purple. The shivers stopped after I threw up but my fever came. The boy wanted to come and bring me to the doctor but I didnt wanna let my mom know so we kept mum. Went to sleep and woke up the next morning feeling ok, wanted to go to work but the boy didnt allow me to so headed to his house. He prepared breakfast for me, and my fever came again, so went to the GP, slept for awhile at his place and went home. Threw up again at night and fever still didnt subside till Wednesday, went down to the GP again. Freaking 39.1 and I don't really feel anything. I only know I was feeling damn uncomfortable. Only totally recovered on Friday morning. Went down to MIC and hang out, a new SOGURT stall is FINALLY open. weird name they have, but the concept's not bad. Kian drove us to Turf City to have dinner. Sumptuous Dinner I must emphazise. And that dinner really got me there, didnt really cared about my gastric, and just eat. caught the LIVE seafood from the Unique Market, and went into Owen restaurant. Had Oyster with cheese, Raw Oyster, KING Scallop with garlic, (and its really big), Chilli Crab and Steamed fish. OH YA! and Drunken Prawns, the prawns are SUPER fresh and sweet. OMG!!!!! I miss the food there now. Too bad, I was too entertained and engrossed I forgot to take pictures! I must say that dinner was REALLY good, but the place aint convenient at all. Had another sumptuous dinner yesterday too! the boy's mom cooked. And we had a 'romantic' walk in the pouring rain yesterday. The scene was super funny, but I love it.

I MISS CLUBBING WITH RACHEL!!!!!!